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Shopping is one addiction she can never resist: Bags are her love , shoes are her collection and new clothes are her joy!! =)
She has an incredible appetite for yummy food that sets her Darling in awe! Not only that, her favourite pastime is irritating Darling by saying "I know you dont love me anymore!" and makes him shower her with all the attention and affections she enjoys!!


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To take up a degree in Logistics and Supply Chain Management
Go on a holiday trip with darling
Clock another a diving trip this year
A new LV wallet
A new Gucci bag
A Sony VAIO laptop
Prada Bear Charm / Keyring




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Stronger and Happier than before! @ 10:29 PM
Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Im glad i granted him a last chance to have a talk with me the night before he left for his overseas training.

After much probing from me and a lil' soul searching on his own, he finally told me the truth which i had been so desperately trying to uncover for the past 3yrs. It was something hurtful to know, definitely, which is why he had been trying to hide it from me and delude himself at the same time all this while.

There, i finally got the answer to the questions that were driving me crazy before. And So, I had been quite right when i insisted to him that there must be reasons behind everything he did to hurt me, except that - there was only 1 reason.

That night, I walked out of him (once again), feeling calm and tranquil - as though a big weight was being lifted off my constricted chest. Suddenly, i just dont feel sad anymore!

I guess im a very rational girl, even when it comes to matters of the heart. It's like after knowing what i needed to know from him and re-evaluating the r/s, my mind simply stopped sending signals to my heart to feel emotions like sorrow or pain! SNAP. Just like that.

After that few days of unnecessary self-pitying, i realized there is so much out there waiting for me to experience and take on, rather than just dwell on a failed r/s. Anyway it's his loss, not mine. =)

Thanks to this breakup, a 'mountain tortise' finally emerged from her mountain hole and started a facebook account, not without after much ridicules from her friends. This is something that she had very obediently stayed away from while she was attached. . . but since then, the rest is HISTORY.

I found back lost friends over the years and am looking forward to the many gatherings to come, to rekindle a bond more precious and valuable than just love - F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P. Yayy... !

Paulyn was right when she said i should take a break and enjoy singlehood after like what, 12 years of being in different R/Ss? Scary.. it's like i had been bounded by a virtual noose hanging around my neck for the past 12 yrs ready to strangle me whenever i did something out of the "Good Girlfriend" guidelines / rules. Now, is definitely freedom for me. .

Actually i have this bad habit of ignoring calls or msgs when i dont feel like it, depending on my mood or when im mentally or physically preoccuppied. Now is the period when i do it most often because i just dont have to be accountable to anyone so i dont bother to check my phone very often. Haha.. sorry people... i do that randomly to anyone so no hard feelings if i missed to answer or reply you!! =)

Another change for me is that i totally have the freedom to choose the people i wish to meet up with or the things i wanna do these days. ! Some plans i have for the coming weeks are : to meet up with gal/guy friends for dinners and catch up sessions, to go jb with J for seafood and massage, then go blading and try fishing with Natty . . followed by ktv sessions . . MJ sessions with new found khakiz in office. . and hopefully amongst all activities, i can squeeze out some time to shop for a new bed and wardrobe for celebrating ME moving home!

Me: Mommy. . i want to buy a new wardrobe for my clothes and a new bed! (excited)

Mum: Dont waste money la.. later after awhile dunno moving where again...

Me: -_-" wah liew..

I guess after 12 yrs of being in a r/s, even my mum dont believe i can stay single for long. Kaoz.! Anyhow, im pretty sure of myself that i do not want to be committed in a r/s again any time soon. I MEAN IT!!! Right after i declare im single, there are guys expressing their intentions already.. and i think i really must have done alot of gd deeds in my previous life, to enable a humble gal like myself now, deserve such special attention and treatments from anyone. =)

However, too much of these special treatments at this time actually makes me feel rather uneasy and wanna avoid an otherwise, amiable r/s instead. So to put it simpler, i actually feel more comfortable and prefer to go out with guy friends who wont let me feel this pressure that they wanna bring our friendship to the next level la.. Swee?

Off to slp now and tomorrow will be my first gathering with some of my fav girls in Sec Sch. . excited!!

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