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My greatest fall . . 原来爱情这么伤 @ 6:43 PM
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I felt my heart cringed and dropped.. i cried so hard i didn't know how to stop.It's been 3 days and i still feel the pain. I guess this time, it will take me a long long time to recover from this because - i've forgotten how to be the heartless gal who can move on from one r/s to another so fast i didn't have the time to really feel the sadness from a post-breakup before.This is the first time for me, but maybe the last too. I will let myself immerse in this sadness and i will remember it as a lesson learnt. When i finally pick myself up, im never gonna let myself be vulnerable to such feelings again.Too much emotions and thoughts have been gushing through me these few days that at times, i hope i can burst like a bubble and just vanish into thin air. Disappointment . . anger . . sadness . . loneliness . . let it vanish too.Now, i really dread the quiet nights when i lay in bed because that's when my mind conjures up images of the past that make me feels weak . .those happy memories . . the scene where he asked for forgivness and a chance to make it up. . i almost wanted to forgive him and give us another chance. But the moment i open my eyes and remember the night when i found out he had betrayed my trust, those lies that he blatantly shouted in my face just so recently keeps ringing in my ear. Every word of it. How can you be so outright and even raised your voice when you hurl a lie at me in my face?How can you just brush every lie you said and every thing you did behind me off so lightly with a simple phrase : i cant remember i did it. These are the questions burning my heart.He didn't even bother to remember the reason why he did those things when he clearly knew it would hurt me. He didn't even bother to explain. He didn't have the courage to admit his true feelings or the wrongs that he did and he certainly don't feel how much all these matters to me.Much as i cant bear to, i really dont know how i can accept this r/s again. Maybe it is a gd thing he is going overseas soon for a period of time. I will learn to get use to life without him and learn to move on..有一天终于打完思念的一场战回过头再看一看原来爱情那么伤下次还会不会这样 . . .Labels: Lies. Disappointment . Hurt
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